Aching for Oneness: The Pain of Separation Shakti reaches for Oneness

Separation gives only pain, agony, and heartache... How is it that we lost our connection and built walls around ourselves? How is it that we placed ourselves in the darkness? Why is it necessary to forget to remember? ..... Sometimes I feel I understand the play of the universe, the perfect-ness of it all but in times like now where all I want is to be my pure self, to sit in Her lotus, to become the lotus as I remember myself to be, I feel separation like a sickness in my solar plexus..... All I wish and all I know is that I must serve Her..... I see the confusion I create in my life and wonder why I bring upon myself this suffering...... I cannot hear Her voice clearly when I am in these states of confusion and I allow myself to feel misery from this.

I realize only my spiritual practices will pull me out of the mists and even now I see Her beckoning to me, offering me the warmth of her arms..... and so the clarity comes, and out of the darkness I awaken, and on and on the play continues..... and yes, the suffering lessens because I choose Her Wisdom......

BUT IT SURE AIN'T NO GENTLE ROLLER COASTER..... BUT I CHOOSE TO HOLD ON WITH THE GREATEST OF DEVOTION BECAUSE I AM SICK OF BEING STUCK IN THE WHEEL ....... SICK OF MY MIND THINKING IT IS SEPARATE FROM THE ONLY THING THAT IS TRUTH...... HER LOVE...... THE ESSENCE THAT IS AT THE CORE OF ALL THINGS........

~ Shakti ~