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The
Leela (play of consciousness) with the Guru I
believe is the greatest of all the Leelas. When
the Guru has taken away enough Karma and the
student has been baked to a certain degree, then
only can one sit back and reflect on the
Wonder-full Love between Teacher and Student.
Marvelous is Divine Mother’s Creation and
Magnificent is my Guru. I am so great full for my
Guru that words cannot come close to describing
them. All I have are silent tears of gratitude to
describe them. A thousand kisses I send to my
Precious Guru’s Lotus Feet through the airwaves,
for rescuing me from so much Maya (illusion) and
Ignorance.
Due
to the Guru’s Grace I have been purified enough
to recognize the beauty of my life.
I
can say with the Greatest Joy in my heart that I
would not change a single thing of my path with my
Guru. All the tough love, all the soft love I have
received and continue to receive from Her is so
Beauty-full. I Love every bit of this experience
with my most Adorable Guru and with Her help, I am
able to Love every bit of every experience in my
life.
How
can one ever repay the Beloved? How can one really
Love the Guru? Living and breathing the teachings
is one way, helping others on the path is another,
this is what the Guru as taught me, but I get the
feeling that the overwhelming feeling of Love
towards the Guru can only be appeased with oceans
and oceans of tears. The heart will never be
satisfied until it has bursts itself open,
bringing forth a downpour of love through the
eyes.
Looking
at life from a point of give and take in
relationships, I feel the student receives the
greatest bargain and the Guru often gets the worst
deal. The student is only capable of giving
unperfected, conditional love. In return for 1
drop of that selfish, stingy love that we give to
the Guru, we get Oceans of Unconditional Love. How
can this be fair?
Divine
Mother You are so Compassionate Maaa…. So
Compassionate are You, to Love Your Children so
much Maaa… Tears roll down my cheeks in awe and
gratitude for Your Love.
I
know that I don’t all-ways hit the highest mark
that the Guru has taught me to, I know I don’t
all-ways Honor and Love the Guru the way She
deserves, I know my demons often cause me to
sabotage my relationship with the Guru by making
me fall asleep or by convincing me to sink into
selfishness, however due to the Guru’s
Compassion I am still here, by the Holy Mother’s
side. It is only due to the Guru’s Grace
that She still allows me to serve Her.
Praises
to the Guru cannot be expressed through mere
words; the Guru’s Love often is so misunderstood
by the students and the world. How Marvelous it is
to witness a Master who wants nothing for
themselves and wishes to only serve God. May all
beings one day desire this experience, for I feel
this is the Greatest Experience that Life has to
offer for sure! More than the experience of the
sweetest ice cream, skydiving, the most exciting
movie, becoming a billionaire, winning the
Olympics or making love with physical partner, is
being this pure instrument of God. Blessed are all
the students to be able to witness the Master at
work and to be able to serve such a Perfected
Master.
Thank
You Holy Mother, thank You for reaching out and
grabbing me from my ocean of fear, attachments and
ignorance that I was drowning in. May I forever
and ever serve You, until the end of time I wish
to be with You. May our Leela continue lifetime
after lifetime, may I all-ways have the privilege
to be Your instrument to uplift all beings.
Kisses
and kisses unto Your Soft, Gentle, Fragrant Lotus
Feet for everything that You have bestowed upon
me.
Hey
Maa Saraswati, Goddess of Wisdom, please help me
express my Gratitude to You / Your instrument in
the form of the Holy Mother. Help me do justice to
my Guru’s Love. Please remove all blocks in my
thinking, so that the most Love can flow through
these unperfected words.
Please
remove my limitedness from the equation. Help me
move into Oneness with You and with my Glory-us
Guru. I choose to melt completely into my Guru. As
a drop of water losses itself in the ocean, as a
candle losses itself in the Sun, as a limited drop
of love losses itself into an Ocean of
Unconditional Love, I wish to melt away completely
Maa. Dissolve me completely, I beg You to end this
separation Maa. If You don’t listen to my prayer
Maa, I will burst into flames, from this
unbearable pain for longing for Enlightenment.
May
all my tears not go in vain. May all my pain be
donated to uplift all of humanity. May all those
beings whose hearts are blocked and that don’t
experience Your Love, all be Liberated from such
pain, from the sadness of not feeling Your Love.
May all my tears drown all darkness, all
ignorance, all fear within me Maa. Help me be Your
perfected instrument NOW Maa. Propel me into a
space of Knowingness, for never again do I wish to
forget who You are, and who I truly am. Your Maya
is TOO POWER-FULL Maaa that I lose sight of my
Divine Self so many times in Your Maya Maa. Please
have Compassion on me, don’t allow me to forget
my Divinity any more Maa.
Reveal
Thyself to me Maa. I wish to see and feel Your
presence everyday when I open my eyes Maa…. all
I have to offer is my unperfected love and my
complete surrender Maa…please accept this humble
offering…
Hail
unto the Holy Mother and all the Great Guru’s of
the Universe.
Swami
Jaguar Lotus Heart Ananda
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