Jaguar & Pup - Part 1
Vijay's Kundalini Accelerated Energy Transfer - 29 March, 2003

Today is day 3 since Peace Mother has arrived in Hong Kong. It has been such a wonderful experience to have her here in Hong Kong and I am constantly thanking the compassionate Universe for blessing me with so much grace.

I am so grateful to watch her every move up close and personal, how she is interacting with people, how she makes her offerings, how she worships the Divine Mother. I find myself watching her even breathe. I am absorbing every morsel of time I am spending with her. Although I have spent time with her before, for some reason I feel that I am absorbing and noticing so much more this time, than I did in the previous times.

I needed this so badly, as I have never been able spend a lot of time with her "up close and personal" in the ashram. What I have here is so much better than me going to the ashram, as there she has her routine, more people to attend to and more people to respond to. Here I am with her about 10-12 hours a day and I only leave because it becomes night. It sounds insane, but I would probably get a room right next to her and spend every waking moment in her presence.

Blessed, blessed, blessed am I to have so much grace and love from Divine Mother and Peace Mother.

Sitting in a restaurant today, I was looking at her eat, smile and her every facial move and was cherishing every nano moment with the thought that I don't know when I will get such an opportunity again. If I had a pause button I would have pressed it then.

Grateful, grateful, grateful do I feel and I cannot express the amount of gratitude that I feel in my heart right now.

She stopped to buy some T-shirts and each time we go shopping and she is interacting with people, in my mind I keep thinking, these people have no clue who they are talking to. If only they knew that they are talking to Divine Mother in this form as Peace Mother, they would fall on their knees. There would probably be a stampede. All this time I keep joking with her, telling her that I am her body guard. I would really need to be the body guard if people realized who was walking amongst them!

I have these thoughts in my head, "oh… when she leaves I should ask her for her slippers, oh… she touched this pen, I should take that too. All the articles that she is touching has her vibration and I need to get a hold of all these articles.

One thing is for sure, she will have to buy a new pair of slippers when she goes back, because she has surely lost the one she is wearing to me for my altar!

Today's healing session (Limpia) was extremely powerful. This time when she was using her rattles on me, it seemed as if she was rattling extra loudly, the closest to my ear drum it has ever been. It was almost deafening and there were times that I felt like telling her to stop, that it is bursting my ear drums! However, another part of me knew that the reason I could not take it was because there was something inside of me that needed to shift.

Then there was the 2nd type of rattle (which is not loud at all) that Peace Mother uses to "de-cord" people, to remove the negative / limited programming within people. This drained me of all the energy I had. I became so weak that my mind was saying, "I need the bed to lie down or drop to the floor… I cannot sit up on this chair!" My neck was tilting to the side and if it wasn't attached to my head, it would have surely fallen off as I couldn't hold it up any more.

Lastly, there was the part when she put her hand on my chest and the other on my back. It was so warm, and I could feel the power being transferred into me. I couldn't handle that. I wanted to tell her to please stop, as I was feeling as if my body was going to melt, break or somehow disintegrate. It reminded me of the time when I was in an amusement park and there were these rides that took me up really fast and brought me down with full force. I remember it feeling like my insides were stretched to the maximum and I was on the verge of throwing up because of so much pressure on the body.

Even though I kept saying to myself, "I should tell Peace Mother to stop," there was the other part of me, telling me that I have to endure it if I want to reach the stage of Samadhi with my Kundalini full risen. The only way I knew how to, was by becoming one with Divine Mother and Peace Mother's energy. I had to shift my vibration to oscillate at her speed so I didn't feel this pull or push that I was feeling. That was the only thing that allowed me to continue receiving the Shakti transfer from her.

While this healing session was going on I found myself talking with Divine Mother

Me - I am coming, lay out the red carpet Mother.
Divine Mother - My son, the red carpet has been laid out since ages, I am just waiting for you to walk on it.
Me - I am walking….I am walking…..I am coming, I am approaching you, I have arrived.

What I envisioned then was this bright white light with Peace Mother standing to my left and other forms of Divine Mother like Durge, Mahalakshmi, Kali. Also present were Baba Muktananda, Bhagwan Nityananda, Lord Shiva and I seemed to also see Parmahansa Yogananda. I remember asking myself, "If I don't even remember what he looks like, how can he be there in this vision? The answer came back was that I have reached Siddha Loka, the world of the Siddhas (Perfected, Realized Beings) which is why Paramahansa Yogananda is there as well.

I got down on my knees and bowed down to all of them, feeling eternally grateful.

I remember communicating with them, letting them know that I am ready to do selfless service for humanity and I have dropped all my baggage. I stated I have no attachments to anything or anybody in particular, except to the thought that I want to serve the light and am willing to do whatever is required of me.

I got an answer back, that I still have one more baggage to let go off and that is self consciousness, which I acknowledged. I asked for their assistance with this, as I cannot do this on my own and begged them to please uplift any limited thoughts I have on this issue.

Around that time Peace Mother switched her hands to my head. I felt the same warmth coming through and I was once again talking to myself, setting the intention to dissolve all self consciousness that my mind keeps imposing upon me. This restraining voice controls my actions and prevents the energy to flow freely during the times It wants to flow through me. I set the intention to do what The Energy, The Shakti, The Goddess would require of me to act upon that energy, whether that be dancing in public, chanting in public and other things a true lover of Divine Mother would do.

I can't say that this self consciousness thing has been dissolved, but what I can say is that I am sure Peace Mother has helped me budge something major within me.

During the session and while all the rattling was going on, I felt a shiver up my spine or down my spine, I cannot remember. I had to shake it off and that was something that has either never happened to me or maybe happened once, not sure, but it was definitely a sign that something inside of me was shifted.

At the end of the session I tried so hard to come back, but I couldn't move. The only part of me I could move were my face muscles, I couldn't help smiling at my situation for not having the power to move even my finger and for feeling so weak. If it wasn't for my back hurting from sitting so long,I would have stayed on that chair for the night. All I wanted to do was just lie down on a bed and continue in this state until it was time to wake up the next morning.

I had to force myself to move. I managed to move my hands and I put it on my face over my eyes and with my elbows on my knees, because I wanted some sort of support for my body. When I put my hands over my eyes I could see this vibration in the darkness moving extraordinarily fast. It was as though my eyes were closed and I was in a car at night on a highway, feeling each street light pass by very fast one after another.

If that wasn't enough, Peace Mother start rattling again, making me more weak. Here I was trying to come out of this trance, and she was getting me back into it.

Anyway, I finally came out of it and my first few words to Peace Mother was going to be, "Peace Mother you are killing me!!!!", but I changed that to "I am surprised I am still alive, you crucified me today". Her answer was "this is just the tip of the tip of the tip of the tip, of the tip, of the tip……..of the iceberg".

I can only imagine what it will be like after a few more days. My body is so worn out that at this moment I cannot take any more healing. She has bulldozed my body to the maximum for now. I hope to regain some strength tomorrow and be ready for her to assist me to dissolve more karmas, sanskaras (lodged psychic impressions) and purify myself even more.

I am so grateful to Divine Mother for showering me with so much grace and it is my desire and intention for Divine Mother to use me as a vehicle to uplift humanity as well and return all this and much much more to humanity.

With eternal gratitude,
Victory Ray - Vijay